January 19, 2011

I have been remiss.....missed a lot of days.....

Today I am thankful for the life my mother lived, for the example that she set, the lives she touched, and the 42 years I had with her.

Exactly one year ago today I stood in a hospital room with my dad and my brother, kissed my mother on the forehead, told her I loved her, and held her hand as she passed from this life. I wanted to sing for her, but I couldn't - I will always regret that.

It's expected to say that I know she's in a better place and I'm happy she's there --- and that's true, but I miss her. And if I could bring her back, I would. But, I can't...so, I try not to think about it and mostly I'm okay. But some days....some days....are just hard......

December 17

Okay, I gotta cover a couple of days here.

I'm thankful that the folks at THC invited me to their holiday lunch just because I happened to be working there that day.

I'm thankful for bonus checks.

I'm thankful that a psychiatrist called me back and can get my mini-me in for an appointment in January.

December 12 and 13

I'm currently finding it hard to be thankful, but I'll give it a shot.

Yesterday I was thankful for a chance to get some rest during the day.

Today I'm thankful that my car is ready and will finally be out of the shop.

December 11

Okay - I gotta cover both yesterday and today.

Yesterday I was very thankful to move into my new office. It's bigger than my old one and has more windows....and if I stand in the doorway and hold my head just the right way, I can see a little bit of downtown through the tree branches :o)

Today I am thankful for a slow, quiet morning....a warm cup of coffee....and friends who love me.

December 9

Today I am thankful for my family. My sweet husband, my sister-in-law, and my three beautiful children bring me such joy.

And tomorrow, I get to move into my new office and go to our office Christmas party. I anticipate a good day :o)

December 8

Wow....I'm trying so hard to be positive, but it's awfully hard sometimes. Hannah is having such a hard time and it hurts me to watch her hurt.....and I worry about her. But, to continue with my posts of thankfulness......today I am thankful for the wonderful organization "To Write Love On Her Arms." They bring love and hope to hurting kids, including my own.

www.twloha.com

We will be the hopeful.

Today would have been his birthday. She completely fell apart after her friends went home. We sat and cried together and talked for a long time. I think we probably have a rough couple of weeks ahead of us. But, I'm still hopeful that we will find the laughter after the weeping.