Entry 1

I've never been good at blogs or diaries. I always feel like I need to sound more poetic or more intellectual, or more....something...than I really am. I think maybe that's why I haven't posted much on the blogs I've started before.

I would have loved to have a weight loss blog that documents my incredible weight loss, but that hasn't happened. I started a blog....but I didn't follow through...twice...

So, I think it's probably more important for me to have a blog that documents my real life. I have three kids, my husband is currently working night shifts, I travel a lot for work, and my mom just passed away in January.

These are the things that define me....that make me who I am. I am a mom, a historian, a wife, a daughter, a middle-aged woman, a singer, a believer, a niece, a sister, an aunt, a sister-in-law, a homeowner, a drinker, an eater, a lover of life, an Austinite, tattooed, pierced, depressed, happy, joyful, unstable, competent, responsible, uncertain, grateful....well...you get the idea.....there's a lot to me and there's a lot I don't understand. I don't know where this blog is going to go, but I know that I need an outlet for everything that's going on in my life.

I hope this doesn't turn out like my other blogs - where I abandon it after a few weeks. This isn't about how successful I am at weight loss, which is what I've tried before. This blog is about my journey through life...and life is joyous and wonderful, but it really sucks at the same time.

So...that's my first post. I don't know what the next post will bring...maybe I'll talk about my mom...maybe I'll talk about how I grew up...who knows...I just hope it's cheaper than therapy......